Tuesday, November 27, 2012
It's been a little quiet around here. I wish I could say it's because I have been so busy with fun and inspiring activities...but I can't.
If I'm being honest with you guys, it's because I have been feeling a little low lately. It may have something to do with it being dark at 5pm, the carb binge I have been on/lack of exercise, or the fact that my heater isn't working and I can constantly see my own breath inside my house. Those things may be contributing, but bottom line is that I have been feeling a little (or a lot) lost.
I have just been having such a hard time motivating myself lately. On my days off, I have found myself spending a large majority of the day in pajamas. Which feels great at first, but around 4 it starts to get dark and I realize I have totally wasted the day. Because of this unmotivated attitude, this blog has been ignored. I used to feel guilty after not posting for a few days...but I haven't recently, and I hate it.
After graduating college in the spring, I have been struggling to find a new direction to take. I enjoyed studying psychology, but now I'm wondering what to do with my degree. I always saw myself as a somewhat creative person, and I'm a little scared to start a career behind a desk. I know it's time for me to grow up, use my degree and get going...but ahhhhh.
Anyway, if you've read this thanks. I think I just need a change of some kind (probably in the job area...) but I'm scared because there are a lot of things I love about my life, that I don't want to change. Taking a new job possibly means leaving Bellingham, which I'm not quite ready to do. Almost, but not quite. And I definitely don't want to move without Tommy.
Bottom line is thanks for hanging in there with me, blogging friends.
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